By Ruth Lera
Today it is time
To keep my eyes open
And my heart
Alert
Even though I know (and if I am honest with you dread) that it will all spill forth
But still today I will keep my eyes open
Letting the puniness of the personal
Fade away as the sun does before we are ready to let the party end
Because there is a largeness
In our midst
Caught in our throats
Trapped beneath our feet
And it is screaming to be healed
I hear it all the time
So, today my eyes will be open
Even though this means the pain of irritation will flow through me
Getting hung up on the villi of my consciousness
Begging to be extradited
Through a type of pulling away
I have perfected
But still today my eyes will stay open
Even if that means jamming toothpicks between my lids
Because my eyes will be open
Not like a fawn on the run from the wolf
Looking each way and every way for escape
Sure none exists
But like the bull moose wading through the juicy pond, its bell sagging in the algae water, pulling up weed after weed, antlers bold without effort, the moment asking nothing of him
Today my eyes couldn’t close even if I asked them kindly to, even if I begged them with all my might to give me refuge from the drone of reality
Open eyed I will be
At least for today
Ruth Lera is the friend you turn to when your world has gone all topsy-turvy. Not because she tells you it’s all going to be alright but because she reassures you that not being alright is just part of the whole process of being human. And she might even give you some ideas about how to feel better, too. Find her at her website, her Facebook page or Twitter.
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Editor: Sherrin Fitzer
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