Based on my own experience, I would encourage you to ignore the feeling of verging and embrace instead, the feeling of boredom.
Our boredom of the process is where the meat of the experience lies. We will continue from here, or we will walk away. If we become wrapped up in the feeling of verging on breaththrough, we have stopped being open to learning. We will offer false hopes to others, and close ourselves off to continuation.
If we embrace the boredom, we are open to the process still. We will continue regardless and we will begin to open once again.
During this stage, embrace your boredom. Note each unwillingness, each sense of indifference and be okay with it, but sit anyway. Make the boredom the process. Find comfort in the boredom. When we are comfortable within the boredom, a world of unseen moments and processes begin to blossom…in time.
Just sit, just be bored, be okay with the boredom, and like day one, week one, breathe. We are here for each moment of connection. Each breath offers us continued acceptance of life.
Keep noting in your journals. Start noting the differences between week one and this week. Add your differences to the comments of week four and take a few moments to sit thinking about the differences. Why did these things change? Why did these things not change? Where am I feeling stuck?
Don’t forget, many before you have gone through this process and many after you, will as well. I have gone through this process and I know how frustrating and rewarding it can be.
Seek neither reward or indifference, but open connection to the moment.